i fell in love with you when you were here,
and now i have fallen hard to earth because you left me.
you left me, you left everything, all of our plans, all of your promises,
i can't help but to still float in waves of adoration for you
because the unforgettable memories of our time together
that wash over me are ecstatic pain,
but the pains pierce my heart more deeply because
i look for you and cannot see your beautiful,
broken body anymore.
they took you from me, the carrions of disease
and made me put your body in a box.
at least i know where your quiet, stiff and unmoving body is hidden
and i can come here and lay beside you,
remembering our rapture.